Hello, Adventure-Raisers!

So jumping right into it… I had my first game day without Little Dragon in a long time yesterday, and I noticed that I was a little more than off my game. I forgot major rules, my dice weren’t very fond of me, and I had trouble centering in my character for role playing. I wasn’t really distracted by anything, although I fell to the temptation to check my phone a few times. I don’t know, maybe I’m being hard on myself. But it just feels like I should know more about the hobby than I do at this point. I know this blog isn’t explicitly about ‘how to RP’; I try to focus on multitasking because I do think I’m pretty good at multitasking with Little Dragon around.

I think my confidence is just shaken up, really. I know a few posts ago I talked about how Little Dragon had a terrible day at the table. That was part of why Nana came for him today (and also, there was a huge event happening in my hometown that was very important to my family history, and they wanted Little Dragon to see it). There may be a part of me that was still hesitant to have this group of friends over after last time.

That and, I’m a perfectionist. In my normal life I like knowing everything I can about a situation before I head into it. I play TTRPGs partially to break that habit and grow as a communicator. Still, being corrected on rules when I’m just playing a very streamlined barbarian build… doesn’t feel great. It’s not the kind of thing I shake off easily. And to put it fully in perspective, my group is so good at this that 2 of the players were talking about how to re-spec a character with the Game Master WHILE HE WAS RUNNING THE SESSION. AND IT WAS FINE. I know I didn’t disrupt the game; my friends actually called it a great session. I was just kinda left in the corner scolding myself.

And, in reality, I could continue to do that (trust me, I’m capable) OR I could choose to do something about it. Like, I dunno, reread the players handbook for PF2e. Loosen up my lips and voice to role play. HAVE FUN WITH IT! I’m still figuring out the best path, but I’ll share it with everyone once I do! (feel free to message me if you think of anything!)

As far as Little Dragon is concerned, he had a wonderful day at Nana’s. I was sad he couldn’t be at the table, but I can always to find time to play with just him and Orin. In fact, I think that’ll be coming soon… he is learning to talk, after all!

Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. Sometimes, you just have bad days… weeks… months? Sometimes it feels like your brain will never get back on track, or that the dice of your life will never role a Nat20 again. But, remember, I’m here for you. Dare I say, in the TTRPG world you’re even LIKELY to find people who are happy to be here for you. And all of them, even the most perfect of perfect players (and moms) have bad months.

That’s all for this week, and remember you’re not on this journey alone!